Eleven years ago today, at 10:08 pm, my oldest son was born. Eleven. How did that happen so quickly. I vividly remember the days that Bob the Builder lived at our house. He was an honorary member of the family and I was sick of him. Had I known how quickly my boy's affections would shift I would have enjoyed having Bob around a little bit more.
Isaac. We had his name picked out before we were even engaged. I remember a date where Steve and I were walking around a park. For some reason I remember lots and lots of bats swarming (do bats swarm?) through the trees. That night we talked about wanting kids and with that conversation took another step closer to marriage. We discussed names that night and the name "Isaac" came up as one we both liked. While I don't completely understand the story of Sarah, Abraham, and Isaac (how do you understand God asking you to sacrifice your son??) I do love the meaning of the name: laughter. Sarah laughed when she learned that she was pregnant at her advanced age. I laughed when I learned that the baby I was carrying was a boy. Laughter and happiness are intertwined and the happiness I felt at carrying this little man was palpable. As soon as him "manhood" was confirmed via ultrasound, we named him. We talked to him by name, the family "knew" him by name, and baby showers were all held for Isaac.
Gerald. This is his middle name. It is Grandpa Jerry's first name. Grandpa died right before Steve and I were officially engaged, but he knew we were going to get married. He welcomed me into the Ruff family with open arms and I will forever love him for that. Isaac's middle name is a gift to Isaac and gift to Grandpa. They will meet someday. This I know. Until then, Isaac carries a little bit of this amazing man with him wherever he goes.
Bob the Builder has been replaced by Zelda and Manga. Though I'm not fans of those either, I know they are temporary visitors and will be replaced by other interests as he grows. I embrace them as a part of my boy's life. I'm flooded with memories of birthdays past. The third birthday Bug Party, the sixth birthday Pirate Party, and last Sunday at Grand Slam. I remember pushing this boy out of me, nursing him while singing lullabies, rubbing his head and soothing him while he cried. The first day of kindergarten and the last day of elementary school earlier this month are all rolled into one. Recently, when he broke his wrist and had surgery, I was reminded that though he is growing up - a "tween" he says - he still needs me. I hope he always will. I need him. He lives up to his name. He brings me happiness and laughter every day of his life.
I love you, Isaac. Happy 11th Birthday!